late nights that aren't at the bars.

the title of this post should be a dead give away that what i'm currently doing now is nothing short of disgusting; studying at sinclair library and it's 3:34am. you say that you don't agree with how disgusting this is? well, wait until you get dark circles around your eyes due to irregular sleep patterns, decreased metabolism resulting in weight gain, and smoking in the designated area along with the homeless. the only good result that came out of this though, i must say, is there are quite a bit of hotties studying into the wee hours. i don't like the term 'eye candy' because using that term only means that you are only limited to licking and sucking. i need more physicality than that. and 'door candy' does not come off as a good pun either so...

i thoroughly believe that in every college students' career, there is always that one semester than seems so unbearable. this concept had decided to seek me now. i can't believe how many papers my brain has to produce. notice that i've said brain and not mouth, because i must actually research for shit in order to appear as if i've done shit. i miss those days of reflection papers and freewrites, where you can pretty much bullshit the bullshit. if you didn't know by now, i'm really good at doing so. i remember this one freewrite that i had to do for five minutes in a japanese classical literature class. why in a literature class? probably because all men who teach this subject are gay or in denial. but after writing about whether or not the sun god amaterasu really hid in a cave from the world to see, only made me wonder what in the world did she actually do. then of course how incovenient the sex must have been for the medieval samurai and their chicks with all their layers of clothing. anyway, receiving my paper back from my teacher was what really bothered me because he had included that these topics were not relevant to the introductory of japanese literature. mother fucker, it was a free write that you've told us to do, right? i've been a student within the hawaii educational system for twenty-one years (at that time) and even though it sucks as hell, i'm pretty sure i've learned the concept of freedom and surely don't need you to define that for me. consequently, every free write that we had to do after that was no longer free, but restricted to one specific topic to write freely about. i can't believe all these restrictions that had been placed in my life.

well, come to think of it, free writing is a great aversion away from indulging in sexual indulgences during study breaks. and hey, what do you know...hotties, weight gain, dark circles around the eyes...kind of similar to the affects of alcohol. since that's the case, shouldn't studying too much cause a satiable high one can become addicted to?